I may have underestimated God’s power a bit before he used this 15 pound little human to rock my world.
The meaning of Oliver’s name is so special to me, Oliver means peace and Zane means precious gift from God. Ever since we found out he was a boy, I have prayed that he would have a heart after Jesus’, a gentle and peaceful spirit, and with that spirit, that he would be a warrior, fighting for justice and the Gospel truths. I pray that masculinity won’t overcome him but he would be genuinely STRONG and that he’d radiate the love of Jesus through peace and gentleness to those he was around. I selfishly prayed that his arrival into this world might even bring peace to and mend relationships that really need some mending.
It is an absolute joy to see Oliver have a peaceful and gentle spirit already but that took shape in a completely different way than what I prayed would happen. Through Oliver, God has revealed my own uneasy and anxious spirit, I truly did not realize how insanely restless I am but God has graciously called out all my mess and I’m working through it. Rather than using Oliver for what I wanted to use him for (to bring unity and restore relationships – big tasks for a baby, I know), he used him to call out my restless spirit and draw me into finding peace that only my Heavenly Father can bring — peace that can’t come through any earthy relationship.